What does that look like?
In other words, I couldn’t lose myself in the fear. I had to be present with it.
This looked like co-existing with fear-based thoughts and compassionately choosing to understand that fear is simply your body needing you—all of you. Not the you with one foot in the past and the other foot anticipating the future.
Fear is your reminder that right now, the situation has chosen you to apply for this job. Life has chosen you to move into your own place. This moment in time calls for you—not your fear. And your body needs you to be 100% open and willing to be in that new experience.
Fear is just your body needing you, not some warning that the other shoe is going to drop. It is your body needing your mind to pull it out of that terrifying past of illness and into the “okay-ness” of today.
I graduated college fully funded and ended up completing my master’s degree at Cambridge in the UK, which is where I currently work. Fear is still a roommate in my mind, but that is all. A voice that I get to witness and not respond to, and I hope this idea serves you, too.
Take a seat behind the fear and you’ll realise that above all, you can make excellence, not perfection, your new grading scale for the experiences of life. You have already won, regardless of what you might think — perfection is the very air you breathe. The point of any experience is to witness yourself as excellence. Everything else are just bonus points.
You are far more valuable than perfection.
You are divine excellence.
You are golden.
Live this into existence.
Trust this into existence.